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Files and Records

by Jamie Iwata

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Color Blue 03:19
When the whole room looks at me They'll see the man in the wanted sign I'll keep my distance from the crowds I'll stay on one side of my own line When can my heart become free Like the color blue Someone break my barricade So I can see the view The cause of my loneliness is me No one has forced me to feel this way Blue will bring liberty to me There should be more in this world than gray
I look into my eyes I can't look as they cry I hate the shape of my face So I'm closing my gates To find all of my gold and throw it all away I write onto paper All my loss and failure It hangs up on my wall And all over the hall Words can't be a sword They stick to the brain Digging deeper through my files and records Burn them, hide them, from the hands of a lord I look out my window While I'm stuck in limbo A man is passing by With two arms by his side
Cordyceps 03:47
This cancer cell has dug deep into my brain It's enough to drive anyone insane The fungus says that I'm useless to resist A hidden shadow for somebody to dismiss You can hate yourself and not even know why You can climb up a mountain and stay there till you die I'll keep you in the dark to save you from yourself I'll lock you up in Gitmo, can't get out from your cell It's pitiful that happiness comes from a pill This infection is cutting pieces like a mill I fight against the ticking watch that waves around Struggling to put my feet back on the ground Sing in the night To find someone in sight Climb out the mine Stitching intertwines
Erase 02:59
Your hard drives broken, the updates heavy You let it run in the night Searching folders to find an error You let it stay in your sight It's all written out now You can't erase The next paragraph down Is yours to make A virus hits you inside your bloodstream You let the sequence repair Your nightmare's haunted by a single message You let it float in the air
Twlight 03:32
Watching lovers through their eyes as they grace their rings bestowed And I'm stuck inside a box in the biting winter snow I'm locked in chains in my cell The endless ring of love's bell My voice it speaks to carry the waves I'm buried deep in a lonely grave The air it searches round and round to pierce our fragile skin It hesitates to look through mine as the wounds reveal my sin These bones locked down On the bed where my body drowns The scars are bleeding From the knife of a lucid sting Screaming out loud But the walls pin down the sound Love stands beside me But only meets me in a dream


After experiencing a breakdown caused by my depression, I needed to stay creatively active in order to keep healing. So I decided to practice my amateurish recording skills on some songs that I'd previously written about my experiences with depression. These are some songs that delve into difficult moments that I've experienced in recent years. I hope that rather than making an album that's simply about me, I can bring people together and help others who go through similar situations to better understand what they're experiencing.


released July 6, 2017

All songs written, performed, produced, and engineered by Jamie Iwata


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